Thought no.365 – The End

Well this is it…the end! Everything reaches it end whether it be my contract at what was my currently job today, or the end of these blog posts or even the end of the year, all of which tie in together in a neat end bow today. It’s been long this journey of 2014 and writing a thought everyday (well, almost, but I am human, I do forget). It’s New Years Eve and with it will come the passing of the year 2014 and bring forth the year 2015. I’m not big on the whole celebration of New Years, its just another end and another beginning, but really its just a kick up the back-side for everyone to get their stuff together and try and not waste another year and get those things done they always say they will.

But I’m not going to think about off into 2015 land and what it will bring and what I plan to do, because it’ll just give me too much of a headache. I want to look back at 2014. And lucky me I have a whole blog full of my year, not a diary but just a small recount of what was going on in my head each day. Just a thought, nothing more nothing less. And I’ve picked a favourite from each month:

January – Thought no.18 – Maze of Life

February – Thought no.59 – Waiting

March – Thought no.77 – The demons will appear 

April – Thought no.11 – It’s kind of a funny story

May – Thought no.140 – The right place at the right time

June – Thought no.175 – Happy Thoughts

July – Thought no.187 – New Camera

August – Thought no.221 – Where are the words?

September – Thought no.251 – Friendships

October – Thought no.278 and 279 – Welcome Rain

November – Thought no.310 – Time

December – Thought no.351 – Holding on

I hope you all enjoy those thoughts as much as I did. For next year I shan’t do a thought everyday, but I don’t believe I’ll completely give up on blogging, this blog shall not be abandoned but at least now I can write when there actually is the muse and motivation to do so.

Here’s to 2015 and what the year may bring, I hope you all have a great year and let it be filled with all the adventures and happiness it possibly can!

Thought no.364 – I am a Balloon

Feelings, emotions are strange aren’t they? One minute I am perfectly content, and then suddenly I just feel a bit defeated. Almost as if I have been deflated, I was a balloon and slowly I have been winding down, unknowingly but suddenly there is no more air left and I am all too aware…you know what? Not even I have a clue as to what I am on about. I have this intense need to write something profound, but words are not my friend today and my thoughts are all jumbled and frazzled and they need to be able to breathe but all the air has been let out of the balloon. But only one thought left. Only one day of 2014 left. Let’s see what tomorrow’s thought will bring.

Thought no.363 – Ramblings

I really need to stop leaving these thoughts to the late minute, because I just can’t be bothered then. It’s not even as if I have many thoughts left to write. Maybe that is contributing to the fact that I just can’t be bothered; it’s the dreaded thought block returning for one last huzzah. Either that or the fact that I bought Minecraft and am whittling all my minutes away on that.

Thought no.362 – Getting Distracted

Every time I’ve gone to write today’s thought I somehow manage to distract myself and forget all about it. I do this far too often too. My brain likes to get distracted, it likes to jump around with its attention and just randomly forget things that ever needed to be done.

Thought no.361 – Positive outlook

It’s difficult to always have a positive outlook and look on the positive side of things when it is so easy to see with the negative. Negativity is hard to banish, we often don’t realise we are being negative until after we have said something or when someone points it out. I wish I was a positive thinker because I think with thinking positively brings a calmer attitude, a more relaxed outlook on life because you aren’t constantly worry about what is going to happen; you don’t predict the worse or expect the worse, or only see the negative.

So, I think one of my new years resolutions (not that I ever find myself actually sticking to them, or even starting) will be to try and look at things more positively.

Thought no.360 – Treat

Treat yourself. That’s what I did today. We so often speculate over whether or not to do something for ourselves, we think that our money could be better off spent on something else, we are just wasting money on something we don’t need. It won’t benefit us. But the truth is, it will. It will make you happy, you have to look after yourself and part of that is treating yourself to certain luxuries. So don’t hold back, give yourself a treat, as you deserve it and need it; don’t let your mind talk you out of it. Go on, buy that thing you’ve been thinking about.

Thought no. 359 – Christmas

It’s Christmas so I think I can be forgiven for the lack of a properly written thought.

Thought no.358 – T’was the night

T’was the night before Christmas. I like those words, their festive, nostalgic, filled with the promise of excitement. I wish I could relive Christmas as a young child again though, I think we all feel like that as we grow older. As a child Christmas is filled with so much more excitement and magic, I miss that. I miss that childhood bliss and the inability to fall asleep and then waking far too early to see what Santa had left in yout stocking

Thought no.357 – Christmas Eve Eve

Christmas is so close. I feel like it creeps up faster and faster each year, and it shall be over just as quick. I also can’t quite work out if I am feeling festive or not.

Thought no.356 – Ghosts from your past

Sometimes it’s hard to run from your past. Sometimes you aren’t evening running, maybe time just goes past and those ghosts you are grateful to leave behind, are just that, behind. But then, sometimes, just when life is calm, the ghosts like to reappear, like to make their presence known, they remind you that they aren’t gone and they still have this horrible control over you. The past sometimes takes a very long time to get over, ghosts are just the same, they still have control over your emotions. Until, well, until they become strangers, until your ghosts are just strangers passing you occasionally that you don’t even need to blink an eye at, because emotions are linked to strangers. The ghosts lose their power and for once you don’t have to run from your past, because it is no longer chasing you.