University Thoughts – happiness

Happiness is a strange creature. Her absence is always noted and yet her presence rarely. You forget that she is there in the smallest of moments, because when she isn’t everything feels ten times more empty, it feels like all warmth has gone and you are left alone and shivering and you forget that she was ever even there in the first place. Happiness tends to hide in the corner of your mouth, she creeps in without you noticing, your heart gets warmer without you realising. She’s that fleck of yellow in the corner of your eye that you never seem to see. But when you look back when she’s gone, you see the haze of yellow over your memories and her sitting in the corner and in the upturn of your smile. So take a note of that. Don’t catch yourself stuck and frozen in her absence, live for her presence and make the most of when she’s there. You are just so preoccupied with her absence and it just so happens to be that when she’s gone she’s so much louder than when she’s was there. So just the time to listen and look for her in the corner. Because she’s there, I promise you that.

Thought no.339 – Shine some light

Being able to make one person smile, or help just one person even if its the smallest thing, the most insignificant thing is important. Just for a moment you have done something good, you have done a small good deed for someone and no matter how small it has made a difference even only momentarily you have brought some light into that person’s life. And for some people just that one quick flicker is enough to light a flame and for others it is just enough to help give them a break from the darkness they are currently in.

Thought no.34 – Comforting

Trying to comfort someone can be one of the most hardest experiences in life. Especially for me. I am not someone who is naturally able to convey emotions myself and be free with them, so trying to comfort someone who is obviously in distress is difficult. I find the hugs I give them awkward and the questions I give them pointless and the advice I give them halfhearted. I often find myself resorting to trying to make them smile or laugh because that is the only thing I can genuinely do. My presence is never enough and my words are not comforting, so I just try and give them a break from what they are feeling and try and get them to smile.

I do not know if trying to make them laugh is comforting or is of any use, but it is the only source of comfort I can give. I apologise for all those who I have tried to give comfort or if you have ever sought comfort from me and gotten this response. I try, I honestly do, I just do not know how to react. For example one of my friends fell down some stairs and was obviously hurt and we both laughed slightly at the scenario, I asked if she was alright and helped her up and there were obviously tears in her eyes. And someone goes to me “aren’t you going to give her a hug?” I did, but the hug was awkward, especially coming from me. For be comforting someone hugs just don’t come across right and I doubt anyone finds comfort in them. As you can see in that scenario all I knew was how to make my friend smile, but not for the long term.

Today I felt rather helpless whilst trying to comfort someone. I could not find the words or actions. I felt truly terrible, all I could give them were my terrible attempts to make them laugh or take their mind off from the pain, just for a second. So to all those that ever seek comfort or are given comfort recognise and remember that not all of us can give you the same type of comfort, but know no matter our method we will be there. I promise.