University Thoughts – I can’t forget

How is it that there is silence when stories were once shared. That our mouths once smiled and laughed only to now show no emotion at all. How eyes used to look for one another now do everything they can to avoid even making a millisecond of contact. Excitement at getting to see one another is now replaced with dread. I don’t understand how we could have once been friends to now mean nothing to one another. How can all those memories be gone and considered nothing now, how can you just pretend I’m a stranger when we were once so close. I understand that time has passed but these avoided gazes or blank stares feel like a knife straight into my chest. I could never forget so how can you? 

Thought no.310 – Time

Time is a cruel creature that takes so much from us and give us so little. It is like the puppet master that controls our every move. Lately I have found that there is not enough time, I need more and more and more. I am greedy for it and want to catch it and have my own supply to have to open when the time I am given is running out. Time is one of those things that there is either too much time or not enough and it is mostly the latter and the fact that it is such a slippery being that trying to control and manage it seems like an impossible task. I do not believe there is truly anyone that has a happy relationship with time for it thoroughly controls us all and that is something we resent; we do not like to be controlled and time does just that.

Thought no.270 – Yesterday’s Thought

So i am writing yesterday’s thought today and then will also be writing today’s thought in another post, because I actually had a thought for yesterday and here it is…

Money and Time is all I can seem to think about at the moment; how there isn’t enough time and I don’t have enough money and how there are so many things that I need to get done but here I am still as lazy as ever. Always obsessing over the money in my bank account and future expenditures I need to make and what time I have left and everything that needs to be done in a certain space of time and how time is running out and going too fast. It’s exhausting and I feel like I am drowning in this endless chasm of not enough time or money and both correlate so much with the other, there isn’t enough time before I need to spend so much money and I need to spend money in such a time, but what if I don’t have that money and its just this constant weight and worry. And I am so annoyed by letting these things rule my life but they control everyone’s and I just wish I didn’t care so much.

Thought no.102 – Stay strong and survive

 

1. Take your pain, sorrow and sins and wash them away in the shower. Just let that water run over your skin and let it cleanse away the horrible days, hours and minutes. If you need to let your tears combine with the spray from the shower. Just wash it all away and leave feeling fresher and with a clearer mind. Let the water heal you.
2. Take the world off your shoulders, even just for a minute and take a deep breath. Once you do that, do not put it back onto your shoulders put it into your hands. Lift it high and let your muscles grow. Just get that weight off your shoulders.
3. Take as much time as you need. Everyone is different, time treats us all differently. So just because time might be treating others more favorably than you do not worry. Take as much time as you need. You will get there in the end.
4. Take a moment just to break down. It is okay to break down once in a while. If you need to scream at the world. If you need to punch it square in the face. Or if you need to lay on the ground and just cry. If you need to dwell on your sadness and pain. It is okay. Have that breakdown. But, remember the most important thing, you need to get back up.
5. Take those insecurities and acknowledge them. Acknowledge that you are not okay with parts of yourself and then let yourself become self aware. Let yourself realise that these insecurities that you have help create you and there is no better you than you. And if these insecurities didn’t make you you then you wouldn’t have been able to create some of your favourite memories or favourite pieces of art.